Tonight I went to a NAWBO (National Association of Women Business Owners) get together and networked a bit...then went out and had a round table with the Tone crew and I knew that Jeff would be at his wits ends when I got home. So now I am home and Jeff is more then pissy. My dialogue on the way home was "let him be pissed off, don't buy into the emotion cause really you pressed his limits by exceeding your projected time by two hours." So - I came home he moaned at me I just let it go...he's in the studio and perhaps he'll forgive by the morning who knows.
I came to the realization that it is really about living in the moment. You can talk about it and try to live it, but really it's a hard thing to do. When you have expectations or fail to live in the moment what happens is you get disappointed or frustrated with a projected outcome. I told Jeff, "hey, I'll try to be home by 8ish." I should of never made the statement because what happened is Jeff expected me to be home by 8 and I failed to fulfill his expectation. Thus, I came home 2.5 hours later and he was pissed off cause he was expecting me at a certain time an I failed to meet his expectations.
This learning process is forever evolving. Had this been two years prior I would of maybe taken of the bait and bought into Jeff's emotions of anger of frustration...instead tonight...I knew I crossed the boundary and I was the one who had established the boundary. Had I said I didn't know when I was coming home perhaps the outcome would of been different, Jeff wouldn't of tried planning his night around my expected arrival.
This is a clean lesson of observation and understanding that you have to eliminate limitations.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Am I really so mistaken
As I sit here building a website Reham emails me a song to listen to which then starts the whole Itunes shuffle. Quietly, diligently working...then I hear African voices, rhythm and harmony, their fun little inflections and I go back thousands of miles and I feel my soul awaken. It is a surreal experience because no matter how hard I try to put Africa in the back of my mind, it is laying right on the surface waiting for me to wade the waters of serendipity. I know that most may not believe in reincarnation. Let me argue when you feel or have an experience like I do when I get so entangled and thoroughly connected to my core I know it crosses boundaries far beyond this lifetime - it reminds me of how we all are so intertwined - how what I do affects my brothers and sisters elsewhere on this planet and into the boundless abyss of the Universe. It makes me grateful that I expanded my soul on a level that cannot be defined, it makes me grateful to know all kinds (humans, animals, trees, plants, etc).
As I continue to listen to more tunes, the wedding CD occasionally gets in on the shuffle and it makes me remember Jeff and how much I do love him. God forgive me, but I go in waves. It is a challenge no doubt to love someone as best you can unconditionally who is not your child - to love your partner. To be frank it's a chore when you got a couple bull-headed individuals trying to love each other. Some days I would just rather walk the other way and never look back - then there are the moments where you are so grateful for the love and the experience of companionship.
I can't explain my waviness in life - other then the fact that often I just live in the moment and sometimes the moment captures me and it's nice to just let the rhythm of the world unfold. There is synchronicity, there is order...sometimes we don't like what we see...but it's exactly as it should be.
As I continue to listen to more tunes, the wedding CD occasionally gets in on the shuffle and it makes me remember Jeff and how much I do love him. God forgive me, but I go in waves. It is a challenge no doubt to love someone as best you can unconditionally who is not your child - to love your partner. To be frank it's a chore when you got a couple bull-headed individuals trying to love each other. Some days I would just rather walk the other way and never look back - then there are the moments where you are so grateful for the love and the experience of companionship.
I can't explain my waviness in life - other then the fact that often I just live in the moment and sometimes the moment captures me and it's nice to just let the rhythm of the world unfold. There is synchronicity, there is order...sometimes we don't like what we see...but it's exactly as it should be.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Grounded
I started wearing my mother of pearl ring I picked up at Art in the Park a couple years ago - when I first wore it when I purchased it my energy didn't match the energy of the jewel. Now, it is grounding me just as it should. The mother of pearl is protective, brings good luck and good fortune, mental clarity and focus - just to name a few of it's so-called traits. For me it's the mental clarity and focus which is imperative. At this juncture in my life there is much going on beyond the usual going-ons of my life. To say the least - my life at this present moment will be drastically different in the next couple months, and for many they may not see a difference but a big change is processing. It is a blessing and the Universe has a wonderful knack of making me do it now, not later. Stay tuned...
Thursday, April 10, 2008
As without, so within
On the tangent of Oprah. Prior to Sunday it had been almost three weeks since I read the New Earth by Eckhart Tolle, I hadn't really been into reading it, and on our drive home on Sunday I decided to again start perusing it.
For many, I guess, who are still working out their spiritual path and do not realize how inter-connected we are to the Cosmos and God, the book is probably above their head. I do believe it is more of a self-growth book and speaks to people on the spiritual level and if one is truly evolved in their faith they can connect to the teachings or thoughts that are being illustrated. I am not bashing anyone, because each of us is where we are suppose to be at this exact moment, which makes this whole "life" experience so awesome.
Tonight pages 217-221 really resonated with me. The subhead is "As without, so within." Earlier today I was explaining to Jeff prior to reading these pages about how I cannot understand that people do not see that we as individuals are actually microcosms of the macrocosms...meaning the Universe, God, etc. For me it makes clear sense. Like the cells of our bodies, we as individuals are each cells in the body know as God, the Universe, whatever label you have - use it - you know what I mean.
So with that said I will quote what I truly enjoyed reading, and no paraphrasing cause I am really no good at it. This is from pages 219-220.
The twofold reality of the universe, which consists of things and space -thingness and no-thingness- is also your own. A sane, balanced, and fruitful human life is a dance between the two dimensions that make up reality: form and space. Most people are so identified with the dimension of form, with sense perception, thoughts, and emotion, that the vital hidden half is missing from their lives. Their identification of form keeps them trapped in ego.
What you see, hear, feel, touch or think about is only half of the reality, so to speak. It is form. In the teachings of Jesus, it is simply called, "the world," and the other dimension is "the kingdom of heaven" or "eternal life."
Just as space enables all things to exist and just as without silence there could be no sound, you would not exist without the vital formless dimension that is the essence of who you are. We could say "God" if the word had not been so misued. I prefer to call it Being. Being is prior to existence. Existence is form, content, "what happens." Existence is the foreground of life; Being is the background, as it were.
(This is my favorite) The collective disease of humanity is that people are so engrossed in what happens, so hypnotized by the world of fluctuating forms, so absorbed in the content of their lives, they have forgotten the essence, that which is beyond content, beyond form, beyond thought. They are so consumed by time that they have forgotten eternity, which is their origin, their home, their destiny. Eternity is the living reality of who we are.
For many, I guess, who are still working out their spiritual path and do not realize how inter-connected we are to the Cosmos and God, the book is probably above their head. I do believe it is more of a self-growth book and speaks to people on the spiritual level and if one is truly evolved in their faith they can connect to the teachings or thoughts that are being illustrated. I am not bashing anyone, because each of us is where we are suppose to be at this exact moment, which makes this whole "life" experience so awesome.
Tonight pages 217-221 really resonated with me. The subhead is "As without, so within." Earlier today I was explaining to Jeff prior to reading these pages about how I cannot understand that people do not see that we as individuals are actually microcosms of the macrocosms...meaning the Universe, God, etc. For me it makes clear sense. Like the cells of our bodies, we as individuals are each cells in the body know as God, the Universe, whatever label you have - use it - you know what I mean.
So with that said I will quote what I truly enjoyed reading, and no paraphrasing cause I am really no good at it. This is from pages 219-220.
The twofold reality of the universe, which consists of things and space -thingness and no-thingness- is also your own. A sane, balanced, and fruitful human life is a dance between the two dimensions that make up reality: form and space. Most people are so identified with the dimension of form, with sense perception, thoughts, and emotion, that the vital hidden half is missing from their lives. Their identification of form keeps them trapped in ego.
What you see, hear, feel, touch or think about is only half of the reality, so to speak. It is form. In the teachings of Jesus, it is simply called, "the world," and the other dimension is "the kingdom of heaven" or "eternal life."
Just as space enables all things to exist and just as without silence there could be no sound, you would not exist without the vital formless dimension that is the essence of who you are. We could say "God" if the word had not been so misued. I prefer to call it Being. Being is prior to existence. Existence is form, content, "what happens." Existence is the foreground of life; Being is the background, as it were.
(This is my favorite) The collective disease of humanity is that people are so engrossed in what happens, so hypnotized by the world of fluctuating forms, so absorbed in the content of their lives, they have forgotten the essence, that which is beyond content, beyond form, beyond thought. They are so consumed by time that they have forgotten eternity, which is their origin, their home, their destiny. Eternity is the living reality of who we are.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Hmm
I received an email today and I am posting the email and my response minus name.
Friend wrote:
So, I was shocked to see this link. I thought it worth passing on for others to at least view, ponder and research. That is what I am going to do for I know I have loved Opera and she does GREAT things and has given me great inspirations but it made me think about a wolf in disguise.....the last days how we are to be so easily persuade.....makes you realize you better have a foundation of beliefs so you can always check things back to it because some things will sound great but will not be based on what you know is your belief. Anyway, thought I would pass it along, watch the video and then do what your heart tells you.....I know I am going to spend some time with this, for the words from Oprah does not line up with my core beliefs and I found msyelf at the end of the video just saying out loud, Wow!.......I would love any of your input to me as well if you have time. I know it is hard for we get so busy in life........take care each of you!
Note: forwarded message attached.
Some of you may have already watched this clip, but I thought it was worth forwarding.
Be informed as you watch the clip below
This may be taken down soon. It was removed from another site probably with a threat of a lawsuit from Oprah for copyright abuse.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=JW4LLwkgmqA
My response:
OK Ms. XXXX - you want my opinion - and here's what I think. I do believe there are numerous paths to God and that there is not one way. If there was only one way then all would believe that one way. I also believe that a lot of Jesus Christ's teachings get overlooked and that often those that practice faith do not really hear what is being said or illustrated through words. If everyone in this world could have "Christ-like" consciousness then the world would be successful at what is truly "love."
It is valid to want to encourage others to believe what one believes, but the ultimate lesson is learned when a person leads by example and follows what their belief system illustrates. I was raised Catholic - and I have always had issues with organized religions because I feel they create more segregation then integration. Granted there are things that happen in history and in the present day that I do not agree with - I continue to pray for understanding and forgiveness on all levels for all things (meaning not just humans, but other living organisms as well).
Also through diverse thinking of each of us it awakens each of our own consciousness to a higher level - we ultimately each want peace, love, understanding, and union with God, Allah, etc. and we learn through experience what we like and don't like. Religion has many good assets, and on the same level many poor assets. It is finding the right connection to God for you while learning to be all accepting, all loving, all everything WITHOUT attaching yourself or your belief system to any one thing. (If that's confusing give me some time to come up with the right words to illustrate what I mean.)
It is said we are made in the likeness of God and that each of us has God inside of us...so if we deny this part of ourselves does that mean we deny God?
Just something to think about - and glad you include me.
Many hugs my friend - I hope life is treating you fabulous.
So if any of you have an opinion forward it to me I would love to hear your take.
Peace!
Friend wrote:
So, I was shocked to see this link. I thought it worth passing on for others to at least view, ponder and research. That is what I am going to do for I know I have loved Opera and she does GREAT things and has given me great inspirations but it made me think about a wolf in disguise.....the last days how we are to be so easily persuade.....makes you realize you better have a foundation of beliefs so you can always check things back to it because some things will sound great but will not be based on what you know is your belief. Anyway, thought I would pass it along, watch the video and then do what your heart tells you.....I know I am going to spend some time with this, for the words from Oprah does not line up with my core beliefs and I found msyelf at the end of the video just saying out loud, Wow!.......I would love any of your input to me as well if you have time. I know it is hard for we get so busy in life........take care each of you!
Note: forwarded message attached.
Some of you may have already watched this clip, but I thought it was worth forwarding.
Be informed as you watch the clip below
This may be taken down soon. It was removed from another site probably with a threat of a lawsuit from Oprah for copyright abuse.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=JW4LLwkgmqA
My response:
OK Ms. XXXX - you want my opinion - and here's what I think. I do believe there are numerous paths to God and that there is not one way. If there was only one way then all would believe that one way. I also believe that a lot of Jesus Christ's teachings get overlooked and that often those that practice faith do not really hear what is being said or illustrated through words. If everyone in this world could have "Christ-like" consciousness then the world would be successful at what is truly "love."
It is valid to want to encourage others to believe what one believes, but the ultimate lesson is learned when a person leads by example and follows what their belief system illustrates. I was raised Catholic - and I have always had issues with organized religions because I feel they create more segregation then integration. Granted there are things that happen in history and in the present day that I do not agree with - I continue to pray for understanding and forgiveness on all levels for all things (meaning not just humans, but other living organisms as well).
Also through diverse thinking of each of us it awakens each of our own consciousness to a higher level - we ultimately each want peace, love, understanding, and union with God, Allah, etc. and we learn through experience what we like and don't like. Religion has many good assets, and on the same level many poor assets. It is finding the right connection to God for you while learning to be all accepting, all loving, all everything WITHOUT attaching yourself or your belief system to any one thing. (If that's confusing give me some time to come up with the right words to illustrate what I mean.)
It is said we are made in the likeness of God and that each of us has God inside of us...so if we deny this part of ourselves does that mean we deny God?
Just something to think about - and glad you include me.
Many hugs my friend - I hope life is treating you fabulous.
So if any of you have an opinion forward it to me I would love to hear your take.
Peace!
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