Drift Away

Uncle Krackers remix of Drift Away was mine and Jeff's "wedding song." The memory it evokes in my mind is my dad sitting on the picnic table bench with my cousin Rachel with a big-shit-grin and singing and swaying to the music. When I hear the song it lifts me up - it is such a wonderfully vivid image that it is one of the few I cherish. I have a lot of memories of my dad - I miss him dearly - and the other day when I was sick and needing a back rub I was desperately wishing for my daddy's hands. It almost feels surreal. I am present and know that my dad was of this earth plane - yet, it seems like a lifetime ago, which truthfully it is. There is so much to be learned from my dad's life, no matter how often I felt like he needed to be more responsible, as I reflect back I see his lesson to me is truly about living in the moment. Granted he had his bitches and moans - all in all - the guy knew how to get along with virtually everyone and always how to have a great time. Always picking on me - and offering me that sound voice of reason. I miss the middle of the night phone calls. I miss my dad. Read the lyrics and remember his song - it's a good one.

Drift Away by Uncle Kracker

Day after day I'm more confused
But I look for the light through the pourin' rain
You know, that's a game, that I hate to loose
I'm feelin' the strain, ain't it a shame

[CHORUS:]
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away

Won't you take me away
Beginin' to think, that I'm wastin' time
And I don't understand the things I do
The world outside looks so unkind
I'm countin' on you, you can carry me through

Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away

Won't you take me awayAnd when my mind is free
You know your melody can move me
And when I'm feelin' blue
The guitars come through to soothe me
Thanks for the joy you've given me
I want you to know I believe in your song
And rhythm, and rhyme, and harmony
You helped me along, you're makin' me strong

Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Won't you take me away

Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Won't you take me away.

My dad was always my savior in a sense - a savior of my sanity, bringing me home and grounding me in the present moment. Aiding me in coming to my own revelations. Ironic how this song is symbolic of Jeff too - although very challenging at times - Jeff is a very grounding force in my life. I guess if I didn't have him or my dad to keep me sane I'd be in the clouds.

Tonight I started listening and sorting through some of my music collection looking for songs that move you - to spin! Spinning - where you ride a stationary bike and sweat your ass off if you commit to getting stronger. Duana is instructing a couple spin classes a week now - so I am scanning my library for some good riding songs for her to peruse. It's actually turning into a wonderful experience. When Jeff and I were married I compiled a CD of music and it was part of our invitation - it is evoking great emotions and helping me to remember how much I do love Te's daddy, how grateful I am to have shared the experience with all our family and friends, how grateful I had the opportunity for my dad to walk me down the aisle and dance with me. That my mom and Bebot took the time to prepare one of the yummiest meals, grateful the Marley's love me enough to share the experience of the River with friends and family. I could go on and on - I guess this evening I am full of gratitude. Life is a blessing.